| The fire |
[Oct 3rd 2008|07:18am] |
Always look on the bright side of things. Let me tell you about the bright sides of my life. I have my dream job as a UI/UX designer at a really intelligent company that values me. I am making great progress in my career for being a 24 year old, about 3 years out of college. Since I moved into one of the coolest cities on the west coast, I’ve only grown closer to my family, whom I love very much. My true friends in San Diego and Bay Area are a modest handful, but I’m so happy to know I can count on them for support if I need it in my darkest of hours. I own and drive a hot little red car. I live in a nice, affordable place in a safe boutique neighborhood. In the past year and a half, I’ve grown into this person that I actually like and am really happy, confident and guilt free about my choices in life. I am incredibly content with being alone, it doesn’t scare me as much as it used to. I get to go to the opera in orchestra seats for $50. I have a great friend in the city who is ready to do anything, anytime and doesn’t judge me if I’m in a bad mood and not “on.” I recently met this awesome, happy guy and it’s mutual like, which puts a big smile on my face.
So when life throws me an awful happenstance, well.. I just need to remind myself: I am alive and my life is good. Despite the fact that I woke up at 2:25am to a huge fire which ended up consuming my bedroom and my belongings. Despite the fact that I am absolutely terrified of the dark right now (and probably forever) because the power went out while I was trying to escape and I didn’t have my contacts or glasses on. I froze up at that moment; while this intense fire, which warmed my face and sent my bedroom window shattering onto me and my bed, was licking into my bedroom. I stayed for what felt like an eternity. I couldn’t breath. I couldn’t move. I didn’t see my life flash before my eyes or any cliches like that. I just stared in absolute terror. Not a thought through my mind.
Then I moved.
When I was in college, my boyfriend used to joke that I loved my stuffed monkeys so much that I would save them before I saved him in a fire. Well, he was right. I valued them more than I valued myself, which is why when I finally got into action, I called 911 (worst calm-down tactics ever, btw) and ran into the bathroom to get my contacts on. At the time, I was still unsure of what was happening with the fire. All I heard was loud sizzle-pops that sounded like firecrackers, so I thought someone was setting off firecrackers. I also heard someone yelling, “Get out! Get out now!” so in my panic, I had an irrational thought that someone was setting off firecrackers to scare me out of my house so they could kill me. I told that to the 911 operator shortly before I hung up on her because I dropped my phone.
There I was, collapsed on the sidewalk across the street from my house. Hugging 5 large stuffed monkeys and a laptop bag, hyper venilating and dry sobbing. My neighbors are kind people and came to calm me down, but I called Jessica and Jon (best. friends. ever.) to come out and help me. They live 3 houses down and came over to take my monkeys and laptop while I stood and watched the flames go in my bedroom window and burn everything I knew as comfort and familiarity.
So I already know how I react to emergency situations like this. Freak out for the first 30 minutes, then I go deadly calm. That’s where I am right now. I’m scared, but calm. I don’t know what this means to me, financially and timewise, yet. I can’t sleep. I think I got 1-2 hours of sleep before the fire woke me. It’s the rest of the emotions that I’m afraid of.. I really just want to cry it out, but nothing’s there. Just pain, cuts and a smoky cough.
I almost died. I haven’t completely fathomed that yet. Again.
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| Hello, livejournal friends. |
[Oct 13th 2007|03:42pm] |
It's been a while. Life in San Fransisco is pretty awesome, albeit cold. Life has changed a lot. I have changed a lot. I am kind of chilly right now since I'm sitting by the door in a cafe.
How are you guys doing?!
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| Web designers | vacation |
[Aug 22nd 2006|02:17pm] |
1. Web Designers
My company, Veoh Networks, is looking to hire a web designer who is fluent and compliant in XHTML/CSS and also has design skills (Photoshop, Illustrator).
We pay well, full benefits, very relaxed environment. We are an internet TV broadcasting company backed by Time Warner, Micheal Eisner and others.
Interested? Know any web designers looking for a job? Leave a comment!
2. Vacation
I am going to be in Hong Kong from September 7 to September 13. Anyone in HK who wants to hang out or whatnot, leave me a comment. I'd like to get your phone number. After that, I will be in Japan.
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[Mar 27th 2006|10:59pm] |
These are the most fascinating meme's I've ever seen:
My Johari window - I chose 6 positive terms about myself, now you choose 6 about me.
My Nohari window - the negative spin on Johari.
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| Check out the Veoh Girl - ME! :D |
[Mar 1st 2006|09:48am] |
Veoh is the world's first internet television peercasting network. We offer 5 minute flash previews on our site, but the real cool part is that you can download the high quality video and put it on your iPod, PSP, or whatever :)
But more importantly, go to www.veoh.com and check me out! I'm on the homepage :D
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| Engineers / Programmers - need a job? |
[Feb 1st 2006|05:17pm] |
Hey friends,
My company is looking for an engineer/programmer IMMEDIATELY. Are you interested? We pay well, have super benefits, and it is super relaxed here (we sometimes break out the Coronas at 4pm :)).
That's about all I know about the job, but that's how we are.. More over looking for the right person than a person who fits the job. So if you're interested, leave a comment and such :)
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| Luella <3 |
[Feb 1st 2006|02:00pm] |
So I'm not joking when I say I've been anticipating the Luella Bartley Target release ALL DAY LONG. I waited until lunch hour and rushed over to Target - just as the workers were putting out the clothes. They thought I was insane because I grabbed everything, went to the fitting room, grabbed more, and went back. Bahahah *crazy* This is what I bought:
( ALL OF IT!! )
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| Valentine's Day |
[Jan 19th 2006|09:52pm] |
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What to give your girlfriend for Valentine's Day. One simple answer: send roses to her office. Women LOVE lavish attention and nothing is more lavish and attention-whorish than receiving a dozen (or two, three, four, or five) roses at work on Valentine's Day. Remember in high school when a girl would carry around a billion balloons on her birthday? Same theory. Keep in mind that you aren't just fulfilling your girlfriend's attention whore side, you are also feeding her raging sense of competition with other women. Her gift has to be just as, if not more, lavish as the gifts that her female co-workers receive. Also, don't forget to research the symbolism of rose colors!
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[Dec 30th 2005|04:06pm] |
Hey, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) miriku can do it, why can't I!?
Just kidding. Testing stuff at work..which obviously doesn't work.
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| 22! |
[Nov 22nd 2005|12:30am] |
Yay! I just turned 22 on the 22nd! :D
<3
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| yay |
[Nov 10th 2005|12:45am] |
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Happy birthday, Nard & Hanz! :D
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| Fun meme from librakaos |
[Oct 19th 2005|07:54pm] |
Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.
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| Initial D, some more obsession |
[Sep 16th 2005|12:52pm] |
I want the Initial D (Chinese movie) soundtrack. Any HK buddies want to get it for me while you're still there? Nard? Please? :D
...or maybe an Initial D poster? :)
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| 'Nard, you have more bling than me. |
[Sep 2nd 2005|11:01am] |
| wendyness's LJ stalker is aegan! | | aegan is stalking you because they think you are rich and they want your blingbling. They are also stalking you in real life. Look out! |
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| Gogo Bear |
[Aug 17th 2005|02:23pm] |
I just bought these gogo boots. I will now be an impressive 5'11" tall.
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| Quiz mania! Way better than the other ones |
[Aug 15th 2005|08:21pm] |
Enneagram Test Results | Type 1 | Perfectionism | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% | | Type 2 | Helpfulness | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% | | Type 3 | Image Focus | |||||||||||||||| | 70% | | Type 4 | Hypersensitivity | |||| | 18% | | Type 5 | Detachment | |||||||||||||| | 54% | | Type 6 | Anxiety | |||||||||||||| | 54% | | Type 7 | Adventurousness | |||||||||||||||| | 62% | | Type 8 | Aggressiveness | |||||||||||||||| | 62% | | Type 9 | Calmness | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Your main type is 9 Your variant is social | Take Free Enneagram Personality Test |
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| Because all the successful superheroes live in America |
[Aug 15th 2005|08:03pm] |
Hello, friends,
Does anyone have Aqua Teen Hunger Force, The Brak Show, or Space Ghost: Coast to Coast on DVD? I would love to borrow them and burn myself some copies.. In exchange, I can offer copies of fantastic Chinese films, any Buffy or Angel season, Gilmore Girls, or Roswell. Pretty please? :)
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